As horrific as it sounds, pts(d) / sexual violence – has shaped who I am today.
Does that mean it is part of my mauri? I’m not sure … but I know its effects run deep … it’s nightmares still touch my psyche / my soul.
I’m trying to work that out – live with it – reconcile it.
It’s a bitch.
And on the really hard days, there are some things – some methods – that I have developed to help me relieve the anger – the gnawing frustration.
This is my favourite one:
And definitely not for the faint hearted. Not all those that know the reality of sexual assault / violence will appreciate this … but for Me … it fills Me with joy. Sheer, vengeful joy … that No amount of talking, explaining, acknowledging or letting go, will ever compare too.
_____ Take One Movie:
“The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo”
…. Fast forward to “the girl with the dragon tattoo torture scene” … which by the way is so named as a clip on YouTube! With 92, 776 views, it just shows how relieving the whole scene can be for someone like Me ;) If you want the entire scene, whereby Lisbeth Salander tattoos “I am a Rapist Pig” on the gutts of the man who has raped her; you’ll have to peruse the archives a little more … not such a popular clip with joe blow public.
But for Me … These two clips … actually the entire movie … are immensely relieving.
I look forward to the day, that my dreams turn to a scene like these. Where it is Me that is exacting the torture; not the other way around.
kpm ©
kpm© : me & pts (d) 
I dig your passion :)
It’s never been described as passion before ;) Thankyou! I appreciate that :)
I’m glad you do, it’s the good side of the coin… i think…
Yes – the flip side :)
That was a potent scene. It really gave me an insight into what might drive someone to feel this way. Powerlessness is a terrible thing, and its effects are felt long after the horrific act.
You hit the nail on the head there … powerlessness is a bitch like no other.
Thankyou for commenting! … I appreciate that someone got it :)