and again

we tried,

i tried,

he tried.

its been so good.

and as it got quiet,

peaceful and still.

skin to skin

warm and reassuring.

a sharp shift

of smell,

not skin.

a refocus,

of him,

now not him.

so fast

it happens.

he felt the shift.

knew straight away.

thank fuck.

and before i could breath

out,

remind myself

that it wasn’t then,

that it is now

i came undone…

frozen

then shaken,

then tears,

then that fucked up choke

then…

breath dear, breath

so cruel it is,

to be so close

but slapped back

so far

anaesthetised

to

sleep

warm tears still

that sting like a bitch

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