today, i tried to get clean.
i tore @ the skin of my inner thighs.
i scraped the feeling of filth from my vulva & clitoris,
making my way onto the lining of my vagina;
i hoped to squeeze the bad from my cervix, fallopian tubes & uterus.
all the while i could hear them whisper
“just don’t think about it & it will go away”.
but i wasn’t thinking about it.
i was trying to get clean.