2-3 aug 2020.
this isn’t pleasant .. thats my version of a trigger warning i spose. & i’ve dictated it in very short unedited terms.
it is what it is :
had period, bleeding heavy.
was in pjs, got up to go to bathroom to get a pad.
felt ‘presence’, not seen physical person though – biggish presence – hurried. threatening. looming presence.
felt behind / to side of me first.
knew it was coming, turned head to see no one.
grabbed my arms.
my pants started to come down and blood was dripping.
i was turning my head to see where i was being moved / directed too.
not sure whose.
bed – pushed forcefully down.
they were quiet but the presence was ‘strong’.
they’d pinned my arms.
their weight was heavy on me & i couldn’t move.
i knew there were people around.
the thought occurred to me that i didn’t want to disturb the other people but decided it was my only chance to get this thing away.
as they lifted their arms to rip my top open which they did, and they grabbed both breasts in their hands forcefully, i felt scared.
with that feeling i opened my mouth and throat to scream.
while they were distracted.
the scream started off small and i forced it to be bigger and bigger and louder.
enough to scare the presence.
enough to wake me up.
i woke up semi screaming yelling.
but calm & pleased.
its a shift.
no-one heard me. noone woke up.