Homai to Aroha
I could be asking for trouble, but oh well, thats kind of how I roll.
How is this a mindfulness moment? You’ll see …
I’ve been smoking cigarettes since I was about 11 … thats nearly 30 odd years of smoking, give or take a few years off and on. I gave up when I was pregnant with my daughters and one other time just for the shits and giggles of it. Farrkkk … it’s not easy!
Out of all the addictions I’ve plowed through over the years, this is the one I haven’t bothered to tackle just yet … cos really, in the scope of things, I’ve had other shit to deal with!
Our filthy government taxes cigarettes like they some kind of rare commodity but I’ll save that rant for another day … but the price hike (nearly $80 for a packet of 30gram tobacco) has had Me and the partner thinking about quitting. However … we both have refused because neither of Us likes being told what we can and can’t do.
Enter the health aspect … I’ve been smoking tobacco (not pre-rolled) for at least 10 years. The others make Me feel sick and give Me one big ass headache. Well I’m pretty sure the tobacco companies have adjusted the roll your own tobacco in the last few months as my headaches have increased 10 fold. Proving that is near impossible of course … but it has lead to:
Me cutting down.
I’ve gone from about 12 per day to 5 a day. I’m gonna sit on that amount for at least a month or two while my body adjusts and then decrease from there slowly.
Mindful? I decided (abit like the coffee scenario) to do this in style.
This little tin is a piece of history. They used to contain 20 ‘Black and White’ cigarettes … back when they were telling us cigarette smoking was good for our health and was okey dokey to be done round our kids. Pfft.
I guess I’m trying to combat the sadness. Theres always sadness when you give up something thats been with you for, like, Ever … even if it is an ‘addiction’ and is bad for you. Try and cull that shit and not grieve it and it’l come back and bite you on the ass a thousand times over.
Here’s to Me and my diminishing cigarette intake 😉