questionnaire twat asks:
- what do you consider as your religion?
me: i don’t have one
me: i don’t like ‘religion’ per se
me: they have no relevance in my world
- religion has relevance in every world
me: not in mine
- well for the purposes of this questionnaire, i need you to pick a religion you most align too
me: i think thats bullshit. you need to add a tab to the questionnaire which says ‘no religious belief’
- well thats not going to happen today, so
me: so, i’ll answer you, but you need to note in the ‘other’ section that i don’t have a religion per se
- alright then *in a terse tight-ass tone*
me: so you can log me in as a taoist slash anarchist
me: yep, you heard right. log it in.
when apple locks you out for putting in the incorrect apple i.d, that you didn’t want, that you had to change last time, to something else that you didn’t want, and therefore promptly fucking forgot grrrr
IKR. 1st world problems.
Q. When is a fitted sheet not a fitted sheet?
A. When it doesn’t fucken fit!
& as I was re-reading (2018), I realised just how long this feeling has been present … nearly 19 months, and I’m only just starting to get a slight grip on it.
I think that somewhere in here, it got too overwhelming and I did the ‘shut down’, and have possibly been slightly … actually abit more than slightly … devoid of emotion.
It’s been a hard fight to even stay slightly balanced. But I think the more I’ve ignored whatevers going on, the worse I’ve gotten.
I’ve taken to listening a bit more intently to my feng shui of late, and even though its fucking uncomfortable, it aint nothing compared to this fuckery.
Not sure whats going on in head … body … world … I feel anxious, but don’t really understand why. Theres no apparent reason … oh other than feeling like crap. And thats been going on for awhile now … my body is doing funky things I mean. My head hurts … my guts hurts … my body hurts … my whole personage feels dizzy and uneasy … and I feel like I’m moaning my ass off for no apparent reason … other than everything hurts … and I don’t know why.
And the ‘whys’ … is thats whats causing this overwhelming anxious nauseating feeling? Is that dread? Good old fear again?
Whatever it is, its starting to fuck me off cos its messing with my feng shui again. I went to our local shop the other day, just for something small … and panicked when I got to the counter. Now that hasn’t happened for bloody ages! I ended up gaping it and leaving my partner to do the rest. I took off outside and tried breathing deeply etc but by that time everything was starting to spin and everything got loud … it freaked me out … like I said, it hasn’t happened like that, for a long time … not here anyway … not in my own backyard! I get the car … in the city etc … but here has felt kinda safe for along while now and I don’t like it being fucked with … This took me 2 days to ‘come down’ from. Fark … not cool.
Whats going on Me? ….
can one man be.