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abstract photography #4

#abstract #abstractart #abstractphotography #abstractlove #simplicity #macro #macros #maori #aotearoa #marae #carving #whakairo #kowhaiwhai #panels #manaia #tipuna #photos #photoblog #photographs#photography #kpm©

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the Need to paint …

thats the feels today … and paint I did … threw that paint onto canvas till I felt better 😉 … 1st of 2018 and I reckon theres gonna be A.Lot of this sort of shit happening … good lord I’ma gonna have to get creative with the paint sourcing 😉

All I can say, is it was a good mess and I needed it.

#Macro Photographs of my process / processing for abstract painting. Lots of paint … lots of mess 😉

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today was a good day :)

After feeling completely ‘ Meh ‘ most of the week, today was a pleasant relief. I managed to tidy up my house, like I like it … and rearrange abit … as I do.  I decided to keep once piece from the exhibition, not because I was emotionally attached to it, but because I Like It 🙂 Now thats a new thing for Me.  So I found him a new home on one of my walls.

I made some chocolate chip cookies for the moko midgets and didn’t eat all the cookie dough for a change, so there was plenty for their little personages 😉

I planted my broccoli / possibly cabbages … not sure what they are … and hopefully they’ll take to the soil and grow. Fingers crossed.

Oh and I forgot to say yesterday: Me and my beautiful Mama went and had a celebratory coffee at a Cafe yesterday! I know right! How did I forget to brag about that one!

I was hell’ah nervous before we left so Mama gave Me a cuddle and said I’d be alright … and I was! I so enjoyed it … so much so I didn’t even take photos!

Yah know what … It’s nice to feel Nice!

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exhibition art ~ hine-nui-te-pō

hine-nui-te-pō

Hine-nui-te-pō

#exhibition #piece #abstract #art #painting #loose #canvas #acrylic #mixed #media #collage #whare #maori #colonisation #response #words #dark #resistanceart #@kpmartistactivist

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exhibition art ~ tūmatauenga

 

tūmatauenga

Tūmatauenga

#black #red #orange #acrylic #spraypaint #abstract #loose #canvas #multimedia #layered #words #writing #exhibition #piece #response #resistance #decolonisation #fightingfire #@kpmartistactivist

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abstract photography #3

abstract photography #3

#bnw #black&white #blackandwhite #photography #abstract #art #view #macro #macros #macroview #macrolove #bolt #wood #creations #photo #photograph #photoblog #kpm©

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abstract photography #2

abstract photography #2

#abstract #abstractart #abstractphotography #simplicity #repeat #repetition #minimal #minimalistic #minimalism #macro #macrolove #filtered #photoblog #photograph #photography #kpm©

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addendum: deafening silence

I’ve had some really positive feedback on my art displayed in the recent exhibition. I mean really good feedback. Things like: ‘it had an impact’ ‘it opened peoples eyes’ ‘it left a lasting impression’. I couldn’t ask for more really.

What I guess I hadn’t braced myself for, was the vulnerability I felt, the negative comments and the deafening silence.

I’m slowly working through the vulnerability part.

Most of my artivist pieces have only ever involved my response to colonisation. As sore as that topic can be, I’ve discovered it is in no way shape or form, any where near the soreness involved with personal abuse.

The collective abuse of a culture and the genocide of those people, is a grief, almost shared. The anger is aimed at almost nothing and almost everything. Theres a helplessness in it that is relieved through art. Well for Me there is. My responses that are educational are also cathartic but purposeful. That being, that in the educational process, decolonisation can happen.

I was hoping that that would happen with the personal abuse issues.

I was hoping that in expressing my self, I’d find relief and educate on the topic of sexual assault. That in the education, there’d be a type of decolonisation process, but based in the myths, prejudices, stereotypes and ignorance of sexual assault.

Great hopes.

And by in large, the feedback was hugely encouraging. And I am holding out hope that the impact it had on those that were moved by it, is lasting. That it creates change.

But here at home, the negative and silence resounds at the moment.

Maybe because of the topic? Maybe thats why it all seems so deafening?

The silence is not a new thing. I think it’s just considerably noticeable at the moment because of how I’m feeling. That sucks ass. Really, it does.

a little update

It’s been a crusty week / weekend. Me and the partner have some kind of fluy crappy virus thing … his of course is way worse because it’s part of the ‘man – flu’ syndrome. Yes peeps, the struggle is real 😉

Aside from this, I’m plodding, trying to remain on course, positive and all that bullshit.

I’m acutely aware that the anniversary of my sisters death is coming up in a few weeks.

The ‘family’ is silent.

Her babies are grappling with their pain.

I don’t like it. At all.

Looming anxiety mixed with ‘virus symptoms’ are making for a slightly uncomfortable existence at the moment – thank fuck for anti-anxiety meds!

My partners father is unwell … heart related, unwell. I know the worry is straining him. We find out this week what the haps is next.

On a completely different note:

I have approximately 5 weeks before our womens collective Art Exhibition goes up … and I’m … ummm … not ready.

Art, or painting … for Me, is a ‘in-the-moment’, ‘go-with-the-feeling’ kind of thing. Which is why I’ve had difficulty creating pieces to order or to sell. My Art is about venting or expressing, not about making people happy with pretty pictures. So when it comes to knocking something up for an Exhibition … yeah well … need I say more. Eeeek.

And on a similar note … but Not lol: I did 3 pieces for an Exhibition that goes up today. I’ll post more on that one later in the week. I feel a little apprehensive, strangely enough. I didn’t last time. But these pieces are hugely raw. Yes, on any given day, raw is my go-to; but these are even rawer than that lol.

Anyway …

Back to the grind. There’s a mound of washing and no other cunt to do it 😉

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artivism ~ “when she responds”

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#artivism #art #response #responding #canvas #acrylic #paint #painting #writing #concrete #design #surfaces #reframing #reconciling #flippingit #photoblog #photograph #photography #kpm©

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