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photography ~ black and whites #130

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abstract photography #4

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unfucking thyself 101.55

Karakia:

Atua

Tukua

Homai to Aroha

Ae.

55.

Heights have always bothered Me … I’d much prefer to be down below than teetering on hilltops … and this is in more ways than one. I’d prefer to be with those that have nothing than those that believe they have everything. The latter tend to ‘feel’ so full of themselves and their own importance that they suck all the moisture out of the air and give Me a panic attack! It’s the same feeling as being on top of a high hill looking down, but nicer than the aforementioned scenario.

But when your lying on your tummy, peeking through the grasses at the layers of universe that lay beyond, your own insignificance is blindingly obvious.

In the vastness of nature, I am but a speck on it’s landscape. I really do wonder how the European forbears (some of which were mine as well) thought they could ever conquer and Own this countryside.

Papatuanuku does as she pleases. To think we can dominate her and not live in harmony with her is actually pretty bloody stupid reasoning, even for Us humans.

I’m grateful for our lands. For the lands … the earth … the water … the depths … that we still have here to traverse if we so desire.

Today I feel Full Of Life.


#Photograph is of the grasses and flowers (foliage) of the River country, in the foreground, in kind of a macro shot. In the background is layers of the rest of the countryside. You can see the tops of 30+ foot pine trees growing off the cliff face and behind those the varying greens of rolling hills and native forest. Straight through the middle of all that gorgeousness, lies the slow moving Whanaganui River.

fuck ups

have you ever seen

the escalation of

fuck ups

at work?

how they roll

one into another

like a giant snow ball?

fyi

don’t take your eye off the ball

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forever young ~ bob dylan

Forever Young ~ Bob Dylan, 1974

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photography ~ black and whites #129

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reconciling the hormones #61

So my sedative intake, apart from the antihistamines (which is down to about 1/2 every week), is about the same. And I’m still discerning the difference between a hot flush and a panic fuck … they are so similar it is spooky!

I had an interesting conversation with my Mama whilst we were away … about the menopause situation etc. She was watching Me sweat and quiver and quietly freak out and very nicely asking if I was alright … and then she remembered that she had started having hot flushes when she was in her mid-30s and they were exasperated or brought on when she exerted herself and / or got angry.

I had a super-duper AH-Fucking-HAH moment I tell yah! I could relate perfectly … so I’m hoping that based on those dates / years … I should nearly be done with menopause !!! LOL.

But after this conversation we got onto what a panic attack feels like … signs, symptoms, what brings them on … and hit on something in that jumble fuck.

That if my hormones are doing what they should, but in essence I feel completely out of control of my body … it follows that thats what brings on the panic fuck.

I don’t like being out of control … especially of my … Yes, MY … body, thanks to pts fucking d.  So something else to work on I guess … like I didn’t have enough already pfft!

Anyway … so heres to another week of hormone imbalance-rebalance-apparently all in fucking balance survival!

Cheers Me 🙂

#meme is a cartoon picture of an older biological woman sitting in an arm chair in front of one big ass fan!

Caption reads: When I asked for a smoking hot body, menopause was not quite what I had in mind.

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unfucking thyself 101.54

Karakia:

Atua

Tukua

Homai to Aroha

Ae.

54.

One of the things I loved about the River and the land surrounding it, was the layers. There were layers upon layers of beauty and sound (or lack of sound) everywhere we went. The colours, or lack of colours, were beautiful too. Everything seemed as it should be. It perfect sync with everything else. It was quite obvious when you came across something that had been ‘altered’ by a human lol … but everything else was just as it should be … and of course, just how I like it. ‘Overgrowen’, aka ‘growing naturally’ … Quiet, except for nature sounds … No intrusive smells, just grass, trees, clean air.

I thought my place was quiet but this was even quieter. No noise pollution at all.

And guess what … Not difficult to be all mindful and shit out here … in fact I’d say it’s the epitome of mindfulness, without the effort!

Absolutely perfect.


#Photograph is a macro shot of a white wildflower bush in the foreground and in the background is Our River and the native bush on the other side of the bank.

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just cos …

#meme reads:

When you gotta delete your post because you’re just not the same person you were 6 minutes ago.

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disclosure ~ latch / sam smith

Latch – Disclosure ft Sam Smith, 2012