tis what ..

anger or is it inadequacies?

your shit .. focussed at me?

the words, the actions, the shifts, the changes, the blame, the yelling. the shits.

yes I pick up them vibes.

i don’t understand completely what they are, i just know they gonna cost me something.

.

& guess what.

i said.

i’m.done.explaining.myself.

that is all. 


kpm©


 

. . . . . ..

awkward times ..

i dont like it.


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why is it?

Why is there an overwhelming ‘need’ to diagnose and ‘treat’ women?

To be quiet.

To be seemly.

To be tempered.

To be polite.

To be nurturing.

To be loving.

Why the fuck can’t they just be?

Be fucking angry.

Be fucking violent.

Be fucking loud.

Be fucking rude.

Be fucking hostile.

Be fucking emotional.

Why are the things that are ok for men are seen as ‘crazy’ for women?

Like speaking their truth.

Like saying No.

Like disagreeing.

Like crying.

Like screaming.

Like beating the shit out of some asshole.

We react. We are. We want. We hate. We rage.

That doesn’t need a fucking diagnosis.

& definitely doesn’t need fucking treatment.


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reality.

maybe i need to look at the reality.

feel the reality.

just watch the reality …

to know what to build next.


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?

i achieved all my goals for 2018.

& i still feel like a loser.


kpm©


 

Image

un.fucking.myself.

Karakia:

Atua

Tukua

Homai to Aroha

Ae.

Strange old times … shits good … but shits strange. Good, strange lol.

My art has always been a bit of a love hate relationship … but I think thats because it’s my emotion … and it’s about the only way I know how to do emotion.

I can bullet point emotion … and possibly even explain it from a cognitive point.

But I don’t feely feelings.

And up until recently I thought that was ‘wrong’; because the ‘quo’ will tell us that we should be less compartmentalised and all balanced and whole and shit.

And … then I figured out that that is some bullshit.

Don’t know whether it’s more colonial bullshit or just bullshit made up by some wanker who thought they were right.

How do I know its bullshit?

Because none of Us is the same. Not even slightly. We all process experiences differently … even hear differently lol … thinking of the latest Yanny versus Laurel debate haha.

None of us Do the same … doesn’t it then go figure that we are going to do emotion differently?

Well it does to Me now … and I’m Ok with it.

My art is my ‘feeling’, and embracing that has made Me appreciate my process more, instead of dreading it.

:)


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Image

hormone #feels

Yep … and thats the ‘Feels’ Today !!

(not my meme)


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fkn hormones.

menopause:

is it supposed to feel like

your uterus

is being pulled

through your asshole

in a slow,

freddy krueger like fashion??


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Image

my.ptsd … is

A thousand butterflies in your chest
A tsunami in your tummy

It’s every fear,

all
At once
.


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a ptsd day

taken

over-power

violate.

.

move

respond

frozen.

.

chill

fear

ancient.

.

short

sharp

hard.

.

blunt

cut

don’t.

.

can’t

feel

hurt.

.

ache

abnormal

kill.

.

run

scream

sunshine.

.

wake

shatter

red.

.

hate

scorn

smile.

.

fake

push

pick.

.

heavy

lurch

find.

.

set

cloud

heat.

.

power

wield

run.

.

fight

fight

fight

.


kpm©


 

dem girls

the feels, deep in your gut.

your chest.

that permeates through, your arms.

your spine.

your bosom.

underneath the breast.

that feels that moves through,

your hips, and aches at your legs.

the soul moving, spirit breathing

howl.

that is love.protection.covering.boundary-less.

that is amazing.painful.exhilarating.tiring.beautiful.soulful.joyful.

breath-taking.eternal.

.

them loves.

a mother love.

for dem girls, this one would die.


kpm ©