anger or is it inadequacies?
your shit .. focussed at me?
the words, the actions, the shifts, the changes, the blame, the yelling. the shits.
yes I pick up them vibes.
i don’t understand completely what they are, i just know they gonna cost me something.
.
& guess what.
i said.
i’m.done.explaining.myself.
that is all.
kpm©
awkward times ..
i dont like it.
kpm ©
Why is there an overwhelming ‘need’ to diagnose and ‘treat’ women?
To be quiet.
To be seemly.
To be tempered.
To be polite.
To be nurturing.
To be loving.
Why the fuck can’t they just be?
Be fucking angry.
Be fucking violent.
Be fucking loud.
Be fucking rude.
Be fucking hostile.
Be fucking emotional.
Why are the things that are ok for men are seen as ‘crazy’ for women?
Like speaking their truth.
Like saying No.
Like disagreeing.
Like crying.
Like screaming.
Like beating the shit out of some asshole.
We react. We are. We want. We hate. We rage.
That doesn’t need a fucking diagnosis.
& definitely doesn’t need fucking treatment.
kpm ©
maybe i need to look at the reality.
feel the reality.
just watch the reality …
to know what to build next.
kpm©
i achieved all my goals for 2018.
& i still feel like a loser.
kpm©
Karakia:
Atua
Tukua
Homai to Aroha
Ae.
Strange old times … shits good … but shits strange. Good, strange lol.
My art has always been a bit of a love hate relationship … but I think thats because it’s my emotion … and it’s about the only way I know how to do emotion.
I can bullet point emotion … and possibly even explain it from a cognitive point.
But I don’t feely feelings.
And up until recently I thought that was ‘wrong’; because the ‘quo’ will tell us that we should be less compartmentalised and all balanced and whole and shit.
And … then I figured out that that is some bullshit.
Don’t know whether it’s more colonial bullshit or just bullshit made up by some wanker who thought they were right.
How do I know its bullshit?
Because none of Us is the same. Not even slightly. We all process experiences differently … even hear differently lol … thinking of the latest Yanny versus Laurel debate haha.
None of us Do the same … doesn’t it then go figure that we are going to do emotion differently?
Well it does to Me now … and I’m Ok with it.
My art is my ‘feeling’, and embracing that has made Me appreciate my process more, instead of dreading it.
:)
kpm © : ig @kpm-artist
Yep … and thats the ‘Feels’ Today !!
(not my meme)
kpm ©
menopause:
is it supposed to feel like
your uterus
is being pulled
through your asshole
in a slow,
freddy krueger like fashion??
kpm ©
A thousand butterflies in your chest
A tsunami in your tummy
It’s every fear,
all
At once
.
kpm © : ig @kpm-artist
taken
over-power
violate.
.
move
respond
frozen.
.
chill
fear
ancient.
.
short
sharp
hard.
.
blunt
cut
don’t.
.
can’t
feel
hurt.
.
ache
abnormal
kill.
.
run
scream
sunshine.
.
wake
shatter
red.
.
hate
scorn
smile.
.
fake
push
pick.
.
heavy
lurch
find.
.
set
cloud
heat.
.
power
wield
run.
.
fight
fight
fight
.
kpm©
the feels, deep in your gut.
your chest.
that permeates through, your arms.
your spine.
your bosom.
underneath the breast.
that feels that moves through,
your hips, and aches at your legs.
the soul moving, spirit breathing
howl.
that is love.protection.covering.boundary-less.
that is amazing.painful.exhilarating.tiring.beautiful.soulful.joyful.
breath-taking.eternal.
.
them loves.
a mother love.
for dem girls, this one would die.
kpm ©
kpm© : me & pts (d) 