Sooooo. .

Guess what.
.
I realised the other night, that I actually enjoy bedtime.
.
Right. I know most enjoy it .. but I have never ever not ever.
.
Never.
.
Why.
.
Aside from the nightmares that had plagued me forever.. sleep is the ultimate vulnerability.
.
Yup. Let that soak.
.
So becoming aware of the fact that I actually enjoy, not just being a little ok, but enjoy, look forward too .. bed and sleep. .
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Is fuck ing A Maze ing 
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That’s it.
.


kpm©

Ae, that’s it

It’s grief
Deep ass grief
Fuck
What wasn’t
What I know could have been
But wasn’t
It’s not bitterness
It’s just loss
Loss and grief
And as I come to an end
As we all do
I can feel, not regret
Just grief
It’s been a long long long
Ass road
Long ass


kpm©

here .. to dump

fyi .. the world hasn’t just recently turned into a shit fest ..

it’s always been that way.

just the skids are showing now 🙄

& still cunts wanna put glitter on it & call it ‘content’.

fuck me. it’s some bullshit alright.


kpm©

so,

why does everything have to be some kinda long winded learning moment or photo op.

rhetorical question.


kpm©

&

trying to heal things that were never mine or never intended for me to heal.

is some fucked up shit.


kpm©

speaking of bs ..

why cant they just say what they mean.


kpm©

sheeeeit ..

wouldn’t have thought that it’d be so hard.

but so far.

its hard.

a different kind of fuckery.

& not to take away from the good shit thats been happening.

but holy shit balls.

i dunno even what month we in.

& its been a fucked up ride so far.


kpm©