not cos it was actuals cake day, or my actual birth date …
but yeah, let me break it down:
as i’ve said, i’m doing birthday month, a new tradition for me.
& i can feel shit changing … not sure how to explain it entirely, so i’m not even going to try really … suffice to say … its good … its awkward … but its good.
so this weekend, i had 4 things left on my list of birthday shizz, that i wanted to do.
one was toasting marshmallows … i know, what a geek … but holy fuck i had fun! i was spose to them outside but it rained. & as much as i love the rain, do you know how hard it is to keep a fire going in the rain lol. so inside it was.
& that was done whilst doing number two on my list:
Avengers: The End Game.
yes, i am a marvels geek & i embrace it whole heartedly!!! & what an ending … ps: i had tears lol!
moving on to saturday, the plan was to be in public, in the daytime, to get number 3 done … i had burgers to get.
i wrote a wingey little tale a week or so ago about not being able to go & get these burgers & how fucked up it is having pts(d); especially on days when yah really want to do something, but your body has other plans!
anyway, my burger cart returned to a semi-close vicinity so i took it as a sign from the goddesses, sucked my shit up, & decided to go. my end goal was 1 burger … anything after that was a bonus.
i did dark glasses & ear plugs & descended on the hood …
& guess what … i fucken did it!!!
& every little bite felt like a fucking victory!!!
oh, & then i got coffee ;) not the worlds best-best coffee, but i wasn’t getting cocky … fuck i managed to order it & wait for it!
i did a couple low key shops after that & then started to feel jaded. overall though, i was pretty proud of me :)
sundays mish was the final thing on my list … & that was to make myself a banana birthday cake! i love banana cake <3 the thing with cakes & gifts & expectational shit, is sometimes it turns out to be a big fat disappointment. so birthday month was completely about doing, being & getting exactly what i liked & wanted.
so i made my own cake … & it was fucking gangstah!!!!
my final surprise, which i think was amazing timing, was the arrival of a special gift from a special part of ‘my new tribe’. an amazing artist … a caring soul … & a beautiful friend xx this completely topped my day off!!
thankyou @gardengoddess , i love it <3
so thats my weekend. i’m completely shattered but in a satisfied kinda way! couple more days till the end of the month & i am happy with all that i’ve ‘achieved’ & enjoyed.
i’ll explain in a couple days, a bit more about the significance for me, for all of this. until then .. i need to sleep.
love & loads of light to everyone x
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