So I’m sort of back to the beginning, or there abouts, with these dam things. It’s an angst-tation cross between being a dissociative retard and actually having something physical going on.
What the fuck does that mean?
Well I’ve griped about this before, but as time ticks on, I can see a pattern emerging …
I’ve spent a life time NOT feeling shit. Not just emotion, but the physical feeling that goes with emotion. Yes, it seems as if theres a physical feeling associated with emotion. Just as there is a physical ‘feeling’ associated with being hungry, tired or in pain.
But did you know, that all the aforementioned ‘issues’ ‘feel’ very very similar and to fuck it up even more, they also ‘feel’ like hormonal fuckery and anxiety / panic fucks.
Yes, thats right, for Me, they all feel extremely similar.
So … what does one do when one feels one or all of these things happening or coming on?
- Hit the ground and breath deep
- Take a small amount of sedative
- Drink water
- Consult with stomach
- Try and eat something
- Take a pain killer
- Ice pack
- Peppermint essential oil
- Breath deeper
- Calming music
- Re check that I have eaten enough, drank enough.
- Re check and start at the beginning again until it (the panic fuck feeling and dizziness) subsides.
This has been Me on and off for the past couple days and feeling pretty over it. It’s kinda scary, so much so I may even go to the doctors arrghh.
Staying positive, whatever the fuck that means though.
Ok … trying to stay gangstah ;)
Love and light xo