hear me :
by turning or weaponising any attempt at intimacy, as me being some dirty lil whore.
means you aint no different than everyone else. anyones whose attempted that. anyways.
although i feel strangely embarrassed and humiliated. which feels weird.
also unheard & misunderstood, again, but then kinda meh ..
it aint nothing new.
that there has been so many who have taken the time to try and make me feel diminished, so as to make themselves feel better.
but to laugh, or make light of, my wound … on my trauma.
my gapping but healing wound ..
my, try every day to manage my reality, wound ..
is beyond what I imagined it would feel like. does & did , feel like.
youre not the first to dismiss, to try and minimise what you believe to be the issue.
youre not the first to try and validate your disdain and disapproval masked as disappointment. youre not the first with the inability to be truthful, fully.
& youre not the first to stomp your foot at my boundaries.
you are the last though.
& today im gonna rest.
& you can go fuck yo’self.