reconciling the hormones #61

So my sedative intake, apart from the antihistamines (which is down to about 1/2 every week), is about the same. And I’m still discerning the difference between a hot flush and a panic fuck … they are so similar it is spooky!

I had an interesting conversation with my Mama whilst we were away … about the menopause situation etc. She was watching Me sweat and quiver and quietly freak out and very nicely asking if I was alright … and then she remembered that she had started having hot flushes when she was in her mid-30s and they were exasperated or brought on when she exerted herself and / or got angry.

I had a super-duper AH-Fucking-HAH moment I tell yah! I could relate perfectly … so I’m hoping that based on those dates / years … I should nearly be done with menopause !!! LOL.

But after this conversation we got onto what a panic attack feels like … signs, symptoms, what brings them on … and hit on something in that jumble fuck.

That if my hormones are doing what they should, but in essence I feel completely out of control of my body … it follows that thats what brings on the panic fuck.

I don’t like being out of control … especially of my … Yes, MY … body, thanks to pts fucking d.  So something else to work on I guess … like I didn’t have enough already pfft!

Anyway … so heres to another week of hormone imbalance-rebalance-apparently all in fucking balance survival!

Cheers Me 🙂

#meme is a cartoon picture of an older biological woman sitting in an arm chair in front of one big ass fan!

Caption reads: When I asked for a smoking hot body, menopause was not quite what I had in mind.


just cos …

#meme reads:

When you gotta delete your post because you’re just not the same person you were 6 minutes ago.

argue …

you know what …

i don’t think

i have anything

to add to this




thats a new place

For Me.


happy birthday :)

It’s no-ones birthday that I know of: But this is just the epic birthday meme (if you don’t offend easily … 😉 ).


#meme is an old school picture of a person (woman) in one of those old school high neck jersey thingys, holding a small ‘overly’ gift wrapped present.

The caption reads:

Happy Birthday you old slutbag.




I know I know … but are we not all guilty of this … hmm ? ?

#meme reads:

My favourite thing about being an adult is avoiding going to the doctors until I need to be hospitalised.





#meme is a picture of a person underneath what looks like an office desk, with a look of desperate agony on her face. In her hand she a a bottle of red wine. The caption reads:

How I Feel Today.


366 reasons to smile ~ +364.

+364. Haha … my response to most things – Life included 😉

#meme reads:

Dear Life: whatever motherfucker. Whatever.


366 reasons to smile ~ +363.

+363. Yes. Yes it is 🙂

#meme reads:

I have a pretty big ass, so when I half-ass something, it’s still pretty impressive.


366 reasons to smile ~ +362.

+362. Yup 🙂

#meme reads:

“Who you kissing on New Years this year?”

Me: I’m kissing 2017’s ass goodbye.


366 reasons to smile ~ +361.

+361. Post-Christmas feels 😉

#meme reads:

I’ll see your hot mess and raise you a walking disaster.