and there was tears and snot, and more snot and tears

I’ve been trying to remain calm about the pending doctors visit today … just calm; nothing spectacular … calm would have sufficed. I was calm … ish … playing my music, breathing deeply … and then the sour puss which is my partner right now, decided to strike up conversation just as we reached the…

medication irony

There’s been Fluoxetine and Paroxetine Citalopram and Clonazepam. The Tricyclic, Notriptyline And the Noradrenaline Venlafaxine. Then Naproxen and Nurofen and Ibuprofen and Promethazine. Don’t forget the Metoclopramide and the Metamide. The Diazepam and the Alprazolam, the Lorazepam and the Oxazepam. Then there’s the Dexamethasone and the Valdecoxib, Meclofenamate and Metoclopramide Hydrochloride. The Sertraline and the…

Me: addressing … sadness?

Originally posted on meptsdandallthefuckedupshitinbetween:
I’ve been ruminating on this for a while … I’ve written about it a few times in the past; from my point of view of course. I’m at it again, because there is a disturbance in the (my) Force and it’ll come tumbling out all slightly messed up as usual ……

health and shit

Oh how I forget so quickly. I was feeling tip top the other day … full of energy (for me anyways) and ‘shiny’ and bright ;) So I decided to reduce my meds again. It’s a long slow process, but I want off’ve the antihistamines; which I’ve been taking now for nearly 7 years. Apparently…

Me: addressing … sadness?

I’ve been ruminating on this for a while … I’ve written about it a few times in the past; from my point of view of course. I’m at it again, because there is a disturbance in the (my) Force and it’ll come tumbling out all slightly messed up as usual … but oh well ;)…

twitchy eye …

I’ve been weaning myself off’ve antihistamines for the past couple months. I figured my diet is pretty boss now and I’m feeling relatively ‘good’, so now was as good a time as any. Now, I’ve been taking antihistamines for longer than I was taking the other concoctions and I stumbled upon them way back when,…

side effect irony

ulcers and headaches anxiety and depression vertigo and hair loss nausea and vomiting night terrors and tremors ‘addiction’ and suicidality don’t forget the panic attacks and ptsd Lets medicate and see what happens… dizziness and diarrhoea anxiousness and drowsiness a dry mouth agitation and nausea chest pain and sweating insomnia and chills a cough and…

progress…and what?

Thought I’d better document my progress, before I forget I’ve actually made progress. I went for a walk…without the beepy bits and the medication bag. Whoop. I sat in the front seat of the car…for the first time in…ages. Without my blanky, and beepy bits…I had everything else though…sunglasses, music, medication bag. Whoop. I stayed…