365 reasons to smile ~ 20.

20. Sandwiches with Moko 2 and 3, while they wait for their movie to finish “buffelling” 😂😃😄

#throwback Jan 20, 2016



366 reasons to smile ~ +204.

+204. Appeals to my quirk ;)


activism ~ Hidden Figures

“Hidden Figures”: an empowering movie depicting black women at their finest and doing their thing.


I Am Jane Doe


I watched  “I Am Jane Doe”.

Holy shit.

I’m still a little gob-smacked so am reverting to my trusty bullet points for now.

  • The movie is about child sex trafficking and changing the laws in America which allow children to be sold on the internet.
  • These sites, are buy and sell pages; but with an added bonus – Children for sex for sale.
  • The issues I had with copyright and pictures being on a website with pornographic picture of children on it, are the issues that this movie are referring too.
  • Apparently it is alright to sell children for sex and exploitation; especially on the internet.

Ok. Breathing.

The good?

  1. The gutsy survivors of this predatory behaviour, along with their parents and lawyers, are still fighting to have the laws changed, which allow the pornographic depiction and selling of children on the internet, to happen.

Fuck your freedom of speech laws America … this is some bullshit alright.

2. What we always knew to be true; that predators come in all shapes and sizes with all sorts of inclinations, are assholes; and are supported by assholes. And these assholes are becoming more brazen, which in my opinion, will be their demise.

Fuck your inclinations and your ‘rights’ … Children should have more rights than you assholes.

Me’s movie time

Some people do comfort food … I do comfort movies. And I have a whole list of ‘go-tos’ depending on what I need ‘comfort’ for.

Today is a ‘The Last Witch Hunter’ day, which will be followed closely by ‘Guardians of The Galaxy’. Different ends of the spectrum? Yes; thats Me :)

Btw … the Renovation twats are at it again … just because it’s the weekend and thats what productive members of society do on their weekends … Renovate grrr. This time he is ‘grinding’ (with a grinder fyi) off the eaves of the Garage.


Because he’s to fricken lazy to conventionally remove it.

Any other time, I would’ve thought this was a genius idea … but the noise is messing with my feng shui … bastard.

Anywho … ‘The Last Witch Hunter’ … I wanna know why, in the opening scene, when they go into the tree cave to find the ‘witch’ … when the dude grabs his hammery thing out of the skeleton thingy (oh I’m so good at describing shit lol) … all those muscle bound witch hunter dudes, in unison, say … “Oh … Magic”.

I’m wondering … what was it they were expecting??


yellow flicker beat ~ lorde

Yellow Flicker Beat ~ Lorde, 2014


oh sweet … Hannibal

And now, on to Hannibal.

What does it for me with this movie …

is …

I like her tone. The clinical aspect, I completely get it, and love it.

And the Hannibal bit …

“he only eats the rude”

… now wouldn’t that be a nicer world ;)


this movie … Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close

I watched Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close last night. A 2011 movie that I seemed to have missed somewhere along the lines.

The little dude in it has an anxiety disorder – or possibly Asperger’s, not sure .. his father seems to get his groove and does all these little expedition things so he can use his big brain and he can ‘socialize’, as such.

Anyway, the father dies in the 9/11 attack and the story unfolds with this little dude coming to terms with the whole experience, in his own anxiety ridden way.

Up shot for Me … I loved the movie :) Even the title I got …

And I completely got all the little nuances of the anxiety fuelled episodes and the more clinical or ‘particular’ things that he did … having to organise and categorise shit. They did a great job of portraying those ‘things’ that happen when everything gets to loud, to bright, to close, to enclosed …

I think what I loved the most, was the responses he got from those around him. The ‘understanding’; the love and support – so he could be himself.

And his little self – I completely got that.

Very cool movie … and one I’ll be watching again soon :)


mauri of me #10 ~ sexual violence

As horrific as it sounds, pts(d) / sexual violence – has shaped who I am today.

Does that mean it is part of my mauri? I’m not sure … but I know its effects run deep … it’s nightmares still touch my psyche / my soul.

I’m trying to work that out – live with it – reconcile it.

It’s a bitch.

And on the really hard days, there are some things – some methods – that I have developed to help me relieve the anger – the gnawing frustration.

This is my favourite one:

And definitely not for the faint hearted. Not all those that know the reality of sexual assault / violence will appreciate this … but for Me … it fills Me with joy. Sheer, vengeful joy … that No amount of talking, explaining, acknowledging or letting go, will ever compare too.

_____ Take One Movie:

“The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo”

…. Fast forward to “the girl with the dragon tattoo torture scene” … which by the way is so named as a clip on YouTube! With 92, 776 views, it just shows how relieving the whole scene can be for someone like Me ;) If you want the entire scene, whereby Lisbeth Salander tattoos “I am a Rapist Pig” on the gutts of the man who has raped her; you’ll have to peruse the archives a little more … not such a popular clip with joe blow public.

But for Me … These two clips … actually the entire movie … are immensely relieving.

I look forward to the day, that my dreams turn to a scene like these. Where it is Me that is exacting the torture; not the other way around.


expression ~ pts(d) #129

Slight break from what I usually post here:

Last night I watched the movie “Man Down”.

Having not read the synopsis before viewing (typically!), I thought I was in for some post-apocalyptic zombie action.

But No.

As the movie progressed I realised what was happening.

As disturbing as it all is ‘morally’ (I don’t believe we should be sending people to War and then shitting on them when they return, more than a little fucked up!! But thats another post … ), I completely got the ‘scenes’.

As the dude returns from war and tries to get back into life, we’re given a post-apocalyptic type scene; where he’s still in his marine gears, stalking the streets and looking for his family.

Well those scenes … that whole atmosphere … I completely get! And the photos that I post in this segment are about that pts(d) haze / feeling / experience, that I’m trying to relay.

It’s a cunt of thing … super hard to explain … and if you get the chance … give the movie a watch.


366 reasons to smile ~ +6.

+6. Loving this movie …

And this little number has been buzzing around in my song repertoire for the last few days … so heres to sharing the love :)


Interesting times …

We had my girlies and the mokos out here for a couple days last week and over the weekend. It’s always fall on when they hit the residence … but its awesome too. I’m enjoying enjoying them … instead of cringing and going into PTSD red alert status!

My girlies have been having their own ‘crisis’s’ … pluralised lol. And i guess the best thing about hanging out is we get to compare, share, analyse, sort through and come upon great ‘aha’ moments as a genetic collective.  We make a gangster team ;)

After much deliberation we decided, that as women, we weren’t going to let anything other than ourselves, define who and what we should be – like – say – do.

There seems to be a huge amount of pressure to ‘fit’, change, look a certain way, act a certain way … and although I had sorted through a large amount of that bullshit over the years … they were just coming to grips with it all.

They’d seen me experience that struggle over the years re: sexual assault and christianity, but had always just had the view of a child and the ‘daughter(s) of’ … not as individuals and women.

I must say I’m rather proud of them both. It’s nice to know that the things they unfold and deal with now are going to be immensely beneficial to their own children.

I think I may be able to tick off ‘Change the World’ from my bucket list :)

And then after all that pontification … we ended up watching this :)

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