So my sedative intake, apart from the antihistamines (which is down to about 1/2 every week), is about the same. And I’m still discerning the difference between a hot flush and a panic fuck … they are so similar it is spooky!
I had an interesting conversation with my Mama whilst we were away … about the menopause situation etc. She was watching Me sweat and quiver and quietly freak out and very nicely asking if I was alright … and then she remembered that she had started having hot flushes when she was in her mid-30s and they were exasperated or brought on when she exerted herself and / or got angry.
I had a super-duper AH-Fucking-HAH moment I tell yah! I could relate perfectly … so I’m hoping that based on those dates / years … I should nearly be done with menopause !!! LOL.
But after this conversation we got onto what a panic attack feels like … signs, symptoms, what brings them on … and hit on something in that jumble fuck.
That if my hormones are doing what they should, but in essence I feel completely out of control of my body … it follows that thats what brings on the panic fuck.
I don’t like being out of control … especially of my … Yes, MY … body, thanks to pts fucking d. So something else to work on I guess … like I didn’t have enough already pfft!
Anyway … so heres to another week of hormone imbalance-rebalance-apparently all in fucking balance survival!
Cheers Me 🙂
#meme is a cartoon picture of an older biological woman sitting in an arm chair in front of one big ass fan!
Caption reads: When I asked for a smoking hot body, menopause was not quite what I had in mind.