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I did it … I did it …

Feeling bit like Dora the bloody Explorer … except for the ‘We’ did it part, is ‘I’ did it!

Here goes … bullet points again, cos I’m tired, but ecstatic, but tired – and bullet points just work beautifully for Me 😉

  • I decided I’d go to my appointment with the psychologist today.
  • I decided I’d do the blood test.
  • I was ready, with all my bits and pieces.
  • I got up early.
  • Got my shit together early.
  • Actually enjoyed that process.
  • I sat in the front seat 😉
  • We got to town early.
  • We went through who knows how many sets of lights.
  • I didn’t freak out!
  • I gathered all necessary bits to deal with blood taking.
  • I made sure I pee’d before blood being drawn!
  • Live and learn.
  • I asked for the small needle.
  • I told the nurse I was nervous.
  • I requested the partner come in with Me.
  • I told him to be quiet.
  • He wasn’t being helpful.
  • He looked hurt.
  • But he survived.
  • And I survived!

post jab!

  • That sorted.
  • I filled up the anxiety and oozy feeling with these:

sweet crunchy nectar of the gods!

  • We made our way to my daughters job.
  • I was excited 🙂
  • The traffic lights freaked Me once …
  • And I breathed!
  • And I survived.
  • At the cafe, it was way more packed than expected.
  • I had a momentary wave of …. F U C K, and then I spotted my girl 🙂

my beautiful girl ❤

  • And all was alright with the world 🙂
  • I was so proud of her.
  • And proud of Me for being there.
  • Some parents want their kids to be lawyers or doctors or politicians … but I want my kids to follow their dreams and be happy in their worlds.
  • See that smile?
  • I had a Mummy moment and almost cried 😉
  • She made Me the best coffee Ever!

best caffe mocha Ever 😉

  • We stayed for over an hour … Yuss!!
  • I so miss going to cafes!
  • I even talked to a stranger!
  • There was a surprise ‘encounter’ with the MIL!
  • A wave of anxiety.
  • Then back to myself.
  • She was her usual.
  • She took offence to most of what I said.
  • I didn’t care 🙂
  • I continued to enjoy my coffee!! Yuss!
  • Then it was on to the psychologist.
  • I had my list.
  • We went through my list.
  • I can go see her again regularly.
  • We’ll do more EMDR.
  • And try a few other nifty things she has at her disposal re driving and lessening anxiety.
  • I decided to wait till after the next assessment to start this.
  • She’s good with that.
  • The partner arrived late to pick Me up.
  • This would usually freak my shit out.
  • I played my music and sang instead 🙂
  • He came.
  • And I was alright!
  • I survived.
  • He survived!

we survived 😉

  • On to picking up the airport twat.
  • I had ear muffs packed.
  • I didn’t need them!
  • She was offended that I didn’t want to sit in the front seat with her in the car.
  • She was offended that I wouldn’t tell her why.
  • I didn’t care 🙂
  • And I was alright!
  • And so was She!
  • And so was the partner 😉
  • And we left … we went through multiple traffic lights, with multiple stops and multiple noises.
  • And guess what?
  • Yes … I survived!!
  • And I actually enjoyed most of it!
  • And I am so fucking proud of Myself right now!!
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This was just tooo funny to pass by …
Go visit Jim and his Travel Porn and all the other exciting things he talks about … like Pizza and Coffee … explained only as Jim can explain it 🙂

Random Writings on the Bathroom Wall

IMG_0094-XLYou go to Paris and you want to go to the Louvre.  Why?  Because that’s what tourists do in Paris and besides you can spend a couple days just in the Louvre alone just to see everything.  But people go to the Louvre to see Mona.  Why not?  I did.  And you then have the pleasure and experience of being behind all of the other tourists who want to see her as well.  And there’s push and shoving and elbowing and smelly people and it’s just a mess.  And you finally make your way to the front and you’re disappointed because she’s behind glass and there’s few options for not having light reflection glare on the glass in your pic.  I know.  I have it in mine.  You end up disappointed.  You got to see her and she was amazing and all that; but you’re disappointed because of the quality…

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