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& it just kept .. on.

I was 17.

I’d had surgery not long before the summons.

They’d removed a lump from my breast.

& It still hurt.
I still hurt.

‘wean the baby off the breast .. so there’s no milk ..’, had been the doctors orders.

I did it.
Apparently it was for ‘our’ health.
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I wore all black to court.

I was Nervous.
Actually my chest was so tight I could hardly breathe.

I walked into the dusty old room with the tables arranged in such a way it suggested I wasn’t there for a light chat & cuppa tea & I was gonna lose, no matter what I said or did.

I listened.

Watched & Listened.

Noone Looked at me though.
Not actuals at me.

They browsed my face.

That’s how they roll though. Browsing.

Same people I persumed lived in those pretty houses. that don’t come out for beaten brown womxn.

@ court, when they had finished pillaging my character & personhood, I walked out & I was no longer a mama.

I was half a mama.

Joint guardianship or something like that, is what they declared.

it meant Id have to continue swallowing my voice. Noone was interested in truth here.

I guess I’d thought up until then, that it was surely going to get better.
That Jesus Christ wasn’t really this fucken cruel.

But I was wrong.

kpm©

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& because

It’s my body.
Mine.
Not yours.
Not theirs.
It’s.mine.

Everytime some whim of ‘you should’ crosses my ear holes ..
My body is now literally decided to noticeably Object.
By noticeably.
I mean.
I’m noticing it.
Actually.

All I feel, when the uncomfortable sensation dissipates ..
Is, awe.

That she felt, held, screamed, cried, breathed, survived .. for so, muthafkn long.

kpm©

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.. &

“having been systemically let down by every institution & way of being that them cunts have ever dreamed up or destroyed .. my job now is ..
to live the best indigenous affirming, calming & gentle life .. doing exactly whatever the fuck I please.
that’s it.”

#reality
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwabstract
#bnw_drama #bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_legit
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#noirlovers
#noiretblanc
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#bnw_society
#bnw_world
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#noirstreetlife
#lensculture
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#maori #photographer
#artist #tutu
#linguistic #truth #seeker
#etcetera
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#kpm©

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& ..

“yah know, eventually we won’t be here ay.”

kpm©

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some days ..

#contortion
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwabstract
#bnw_drama #bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_legit
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#noirlovers
#noiretblanc
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#bnw_society
#bnw_world
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#noirstreetlife
#lensculture
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#maori #photographer
#artist #tutu
#linguistic #truth #seeker
#etcetera
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#kpm©

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.. ..30

“yo .. thanks, for not trying to ‘lighten the mood.’
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if the whole child / sexual assault tip, has upheaved shit for yah, start by talking to someone .. anyone .. that you trust.
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ive put a link in the bio for nz peeps. they have resources & assistance for this sorta shit or can link you to the resources yah might need, whatever part of the process you at. for other countries im gonna suggest also looking at wellstop resources & then googling something similar for your country of residence.
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healing is painful af, but so is pretending it didn’t happen or wasn’t that bad … now is the time. breathe deep. you survived & next moves will require the same amount of resilience .. but focussed on more than survival. the time for protecting rapey abusers is way the fuck over. taking care of / healing You / Us is number 1 priority. healing You / Us, helps heal / prevents nek gen havoc.
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if u know of a child / ren being hurt, speak out on their behalf .. for the love of all things decent, don’t be a silent bystander. that shit is old af & has no place in the world we trying to make for our nek gens.
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ps : thanks for being here ✊
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& that concludes birthday month ..
ake ake amene.
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also #FTP ”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

#maori #photographer
#artist #tutu
#linguistic #truth #seeker
#etcetera
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#birthdaymonth
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#kpm©
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“April is Child Abuse / Sexual Violence Awareness Month. Yeah it’s some fucked shit that this is even a thing. But it is.
So theres a link in my bio, for you to donate to Sensible Sentencing Trust NZ, or Google something similar in your country. The kids being fucked over would thank y’all, if they weren’t so busy with being fucked over.”

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.. 29

“fyi: there ain’t no such thing as ‘if I/you just’ ..
.. take enough vitamins
.. pray to the right gods
.. move my self differently
.. approach with more
.. mind what i say
.. do what they suggest ..
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it is literally ‘the skirt was too short’ syndrome way of living life, & it’ll steal everything that is left of your soul if you let it.”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

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.. .28

“i am begining to have the most profound-est respect for what my body has carried & endured. i honour it by .. living well.”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

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. . . 27

“simplicity is my safe space.”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

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.. 26

“me & me body have endured detrimental encounters, moral judgement, physical invasion & unwelcome damnation, for a very, very .. very long time. left to fend or defend, my body remembers that shit. hence it’s ever present caution.
yes, my body remembers well. & has learned well ..
I see it.
Feel it.
Take note.
& take precautionary motherfucken measures.
if an experience should turn out to be a pleasant one. churr. that can go toward the count & i will reminisce on the pleasantness. yeah.
but until that balance is balanced balanced …
I will remain forever cautious.”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

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…. .25

“& they all came home with pts(d) & lived traumatically ever after ..”.
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

#maori #photographer
#artist #tutu
#linguistic #truth #seeker
#etcetera
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#birthdaymonth
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#anzac
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#kpm©
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“April is Child Abuse / Sexual Violence Awareness Month. Yeah it’s some fucked shit that this is even a thing. But it is.
So theres a link in my bio, for you to donate to Sensible Sentencing Trust NZ, or Google something similar in your country. The kids being fucked over would thank y’all, if they weren’t so busy with being fucked over.”.

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. . . ..24

“imagine if the response to children being harmed, was as organised, easy & efficient, as selling off #stolenland.”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

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… 23

“to be entirely ignored, is a special nek level kinda fuckery.”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

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. .. .22

” .. ‘why would you do that to a child?’ ..
DMX.”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

#maori #photographer
#artist #tutu
#linguistic #truth #seeker
#etcetera
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#birthdaymonth
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#kpm©
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Rest in the utmost power & love Ma’Khia Bryant. 
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“April is Child Abuse / Sexual Violence Awareness Month. Yeah it’s some fucked shit that this is even a thing. But it is.
So theres a link in my bio, for you to donate to Sensible Sentencing Trust NZ, or Google something similar in your country. The kids being fucked over would thank y’all, if they weren’t so busy with being fucked over.”

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.21

“expose them rapey rellys. they ain’t nothing but dead weight reaking havoc. they need to go.”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

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.. 20

“how do you resolve something that covers 96% of the soul?”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid
#polaroid
#bnwmood
#bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond
#bnw_globe
#bnw_planet
#bnw_rose
#noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet
#street_leaks
#streetoftones
#streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife
#bnwmacro
#lensculture
#lensonstreets

.. … .. .19

“grief:
piece by piece?
each piece gets reversed, recycled, refucked, released?”
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sometimes, all that soothes, is the music.
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid #polaroid
#bnwmood #bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond #bnw_globe #bnw_legit #noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet #street_leaks
#streetoftones #streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife #bnwmacro
#lensculture #lensonstreets

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… .18

“then this twot reckons .. ‘do you have any record that you told anyone or sought professional assistance … ‘
.. so,
i wrote me up a big ass affadavit & got me a bad ass lawyer, to present the ‘professional assistance’ cunt, with all the people i sought ‘assistance’ from, before i was old enough to vote.
the over arching re-ality dripping offve that document?
the distinct lack of systemic interest & intervention.
similar to the aforementioned twot.
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NEXT …”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid #polaroid
#bnwmood #bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond #bnw_globe #bnw_legit #noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet #street_leaks
#streetoftones #streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife #bnwmacro
#lensculture #lensonstreets

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. .. . .. 17

“when does it stop ..”.
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid #polaroid
#bnwmood #bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond #bnw_globe #bnw_legit #noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet #street_leaks
#streetoftones #streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife #bnwmacro
#lensculture #lensonstreets

#maori #photographer
#artist #tutu
#linguistic #truth #seeker
#etcetera
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#birthdaymonth
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#kpm©
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Rest in love young man 
& #FTP you baby murdering bastards.


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“April is Child Abuse / Sexual Violence Awareness Month. Yeah it’s some fucked shit that this is even a thing. But it is.
So theres a link in my bio, for you to donate to Sensible Sentencing Trust NZ, or Google something similar in your country. The kids being fucked over would thank y’all, if they weren’t so busy with being fucked over.”

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. . . …16

“not one ounce of any of it any time, do i take for granted. not ever. ever.”
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#bnw
#bnwpolaroid #polaroid
#bnwmood #bnw_mood
#bnw_diamond #bnw_globe #bnw_legit #noirlovers
#hitamputihphotography
#noirstreet #street_leaks
#streetoftones #streetizm
#streets_unseen
#noirstreetlife #bnwmacro
#lensculture #lensonstreets

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