argue …

you know what …

i don’t think

i have anything

to add to this

particular

argument.

wow.

thats a new place

For Me.

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#JS

Tired.

Happy,

But

Tired.

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introducing

An Anomaly.

So defined as:

anomaly

An anomaly is an abnormality, a blip on the screen of life that doesn’t fit with the rest of the pattern. If you are a breeder of black dogs and one puppy comes out pink, that puppy is an anomaly.


So, thats Me.

An anomaly.

And quite happy

at present,

with all of that.

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reconciling the hormones #60

Captains Log:

A beard? Really? Haven’t I already done enough shaving??

Ay! What gives? I guess in the large scheme of things abit of facial hair aint nuthin but a chain swang 😉

Happy to report it’s been a calmer week … even had a day where there was No hot flushing … Bonus!

Each day … week, as it comes … thats my mantra at the moment … whew.

#meme is a cartoon drawing of a woman all wrapped up in a scarf and jacket, both pulled up to cover her face.

The caption reads: Where oh, where has my oestrogen gone? Oh where, oh where can it be? I was once young and fair, now I sprout facial hair … Oh hormones, won’t you come back to me …

ae … remember

remember …

the little things.

every little

bitty

thing,

that marks

progress.

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unfucking thyself 101.46

Karakia:

Atua

Tukua

Homai to Aroha

Ae.

46.

My Mama gave Me this little beauty when we moved here. It says it all really.

We moved here (next to the beach) so I could hear the waves … smell the salt air … and when I got a bit better-er … swim in the ocean.

Thats happened … happening … slowly but surely. We’ve been here nearly 4 years and sometimes I forget the shit-fucked state I was in when we first arrived here. And I was like it all the time! Shaking … panicy … couldn’t get out the front door during the day, let alone the clothesline or the letterbox … couldn’t ride in the front seat of the car … couldn’t talk on the phone …

On some days I have long moments of all these things, as they raise their ugly heads again and kick Me in the Vag … I can almost hear them laugh at Me … saying “Hey bitch remember Us”.

Yeah I remember.

I remember how far I’ve come and that I am Not as fucked us I used to be 😉

so they say …

theres a time

for everything …

so they say.

so …

whens My time?

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reconciling the hormones #58

Friday has become Update day: for this week anyways.

And that just about sums of the hormone fuckery for this week.

But for more depth …

  • Sunday – slow, sore, clotted, hot/as/fuck, faint, headache, backache … FUCK
  • Monday – hot as fuck – Again, pain pain and more annoying pain FUCKIT
  • Tuesday – so it’s slowing down UN-FUCK?
  • Wednesday – dizzy, slow, tired BUT not as fucking hot
  • Thursday – light headed, bleeding slowing right down, nauseous.as.fuck. FUCK
  • Friday – thank the goddesses its raining!

But I’m taking notes and thinking “Geez can I do ten years of this shit??”

 

and also …

we literally

erased all

memory

of someone

elses

voice, in our heads

saying

“you should”

“you must”

“don’t do”

and replaced

it,

with,

Wait For It …

An empty canvas.

oh, you said

did yah …

and that was

supposed to

be My

que

to obey?

i’m not

a child.

fuck you

and

fuck off.