ohhh she’s been a rough week … well, not rough … more like maniac then calm …. hmm
Interesting though, mapping it out over the week and seeing its ebbs and flows … I’m still hell’ah uncertain about the differentiation between what it is actual ‘menopause’ and what is anxiety / panic ; unwell ; period … and I ate something that doesn’t agree with Me … if you get my feels.
Some of it I know is due to being an unfeeling cold hearted bitch for most of my life aka disassociated … and some of it is just New.
And then I got to thinking that maybe I’d be better rolling with the thought that it all is OK and all is part of the Whole, and it really doesn’t matter if its the hormones, of the pork I ate, or just a bad ass day. I mean really … who gives a shit … it all still feels pretty much the same and is all pretty fixed by 1 of 3 things …
- sleep
- alcohol (drugs … whatever works)
- ripping shit up
Except the hot flushes … fuck my life … those are some bastards alright!
So what I noticed this week, was my period (and all it’s biologically womanly glory arrgghhh) finished on one day … 5 days later I was still drained as fuck … like I’d been sucked dry by a vampire. By day 6 I felt ‘Normal’ … as in:
- Shit – check
- Eat – check
- Not to hot – check
- Not fluster fucked – check
- Not dizzy – check
You get my drift.
1 day of that.
1 motherfucking day!
Then I was back to hot as fuck, faint as fuck, dizzy as fuck …
Positive? I got a day of rest … just like Jesus ;)
#meme is a cartoon pic of a biological woman in her bra and undies, looking extremely hot and flustered, spraying herself with a bottle of water.
The caption reads: Menopause means never having to say you’re chilly!
