#ptsd

the art of being a moving target.


kpm©

so,

why are they so worried about offending someone/s they don’t even know.

i dont understand.


kpm©

note :

art because you like it.

novel fucking idea right.


kpm©

did i tell yah ..

i visited the last place & time, i had to see fuck face?

.
endure its presence?

.
also the last place & time i had the experience of a man that loved me for my entire life. my grandfather ..
& a woman who gave me more than i ever appreciated or realised until she was gone. my grandmother.
.
i felt Feel it.
i Remember. Remembered it.
i Appreciate. Appreciated it.
Endings.
Beginnings.
.
i got to write how I wanted to experience this.


kpm©

that ..

that …

feeling of being @ home.

going home.


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hey, i got an idea ..

how bout we just be.

like create shit & just be.

how revo-fucking-lutionary would that be ay.

*insert eye ball roll*

*sarcasm is flowing today*


kpm©

& ..

i don’t have to apologise. or correct. explain.

or otherwise.

we done with that shit. right.


kpm©

#ptsd

is perpetual panic.

period.


kpm©

post fuckery contemplation:

once,

someone said to me,

why do you smile so much.

it wasnt really a question.

so i stopped. smiling that is.

another said, why do you frown all the time.

it wasnt really a question.

so i stopped. frowning that is.

yet another said, why are you so cold.

it wasn’t really a question.

so i stopped.

listening to other fucking people that is.

the end.


kpm ©


 

1.

” … rua kenana,
tuhoe prophet from the uruwera …

he told his people not to go to war
let the white man fight the white man’s war … “

david grace, 1992

#brownfacts 👊🏾


kpm©


 

fyi: don’t grow old

not on this western front anyways.

we despise the old.

much prefer the new.


kpm ©


 

purpose served.

think it’s done & has served its purpose.


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i.

“always look someone in the eye when they’re speaking to you”

Why?


kpm ©


 

huh.

“don’t frown”

why not?


kpm©


 

ty.

“always say please and thankyou …”

why?


kpm©


 

speak?

“don’t speak unless spoken too”

why?


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and.

“don’t eat that … you’ll get fat”

so?


kpm©


 

?

“don’t be too proud and full of yourself … it’s a long way to fall …”

Really?


kpm©


 

subject.change.

” … subject to change … “

is that, everything? some things? just your things? or mine too?


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Caps.

“capital letters whilst writing, may denote Yelling … but guess what: they are Still only letters …”

#JS


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